The subject of time is often spoken of by men with either too little or too much time on their hands. It’s virtue or curse molds each of us in intricate ways normally unbeknownst until we pause long enough to look back. Only then are the rivers and gorges that have been carved in our wake most obvious and appreciable. As I sit now beneath this tree that has withstood the test of time for more than a century I look back in awe at all that has happened in the last several years. As the breeze dances with the hair on my forehead and I brush it aside, I fondly recall the curly blonde locks on my own son’s head and how even those fine strands have given me cause to think.
My apparent wandering on Gor hasn’t been of my own design and has caused me to even doubt myself but to not learn from it would be most neglectful. Being accepted and trained as a Scribe has been a source of pride and has benefitted me well. A glance at my house beside the river, the bosk vulos outside and alluring bells of my slave as she tends to them attest to that truth. Even my recent companionship would likely had not happened without the good fortunes of my Caste. And yet, my education has created more questions for me than answers.
A man clings to his Home Stone with great vigor and gives his all to it and yet sometimes it is not enough. Cities fall and with them, they take a piece of you. For better or worse, some men find a new home and hardly miss a step while others struggle…searching. I have been in the latter group since the fall of Midas. The subsequent questioning and searching I’ve done since then has only created larger questions. I look in the mirror..and at my son…and I see how others look at me and I doubt even what I once knew to be true about my own past. Perhaps my childhood memories were but dreams or even fantasies.
Whatever the truth may be, this hiatus in my own duties while my companion is away on her own endeavors has given me the needed time to pour through the pile of scrolls left to me…though I do of course wonder how she is as I’ve not heard from her in over a month.
